Workout Updates + Foam Rolling


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So, yesterday was week two of round two of doing the 21 Day Fix. I have been substituting Cardio Fix day with running instead.

I went for a run with Kevin and Mogli on Sunday, and I’ve been pretty out of commission since. My shins were on fire (understatement) for days. I will say, I have terrible running form, and I smack my feet on the pavement. Not to blame Mogli, but running with a dog that is constantly tugging is extremely difficult. He just wants to sprint, while I want to slow it down and go my pace (a ten min mile, thankyouverymuch).

We did 1.1 miles, so it wasn’t crazy difficult, but it was strenuous on my shins.

Still in pain on Tuesday, I ordered a foam roller.

I wish I could describe how much joy this thing has brought me.

I watched the 13 minute video recommended in the Amazon comments, and huzzah!

I never realized how tight my butt, thighs, and legs were. I actually rolled twice yesterday. Once around 2pm, and then another time at 6. The second time was after our mile walk around the neighborhood. I intentionally took the mountainous road, with the intention to roll when we got home.

Boy did I.

My calves and shins still hurt. The tops of my thighs–right above my knee–hurt pretty bad too. Once I finished, though, I was so loose. The best way to describe it was the way I told Kevin. When you pick up a heavy milk gallon, you use all of your force and you’re prepared to carry the weight. When you pick up a milk gallon that’s empty, when you expect it to be full, it practically flies out of your hands. That’s how my legs felt. I never realized just how heavy my legs and butt felt until rolling. Last night when I walked, I felt gelatinous. It doesn’t sound fun, but it is so comfortable. I just felt loose. I felt like all of my stressors were gone. In my legs, anyway.

I also did yoga on Tuesday. I know it’s hard to believe but chair pose was okay! I didnt hate it. I also…drumroll please…was able to touch my toes! Autumn does sun salutations three times before getting into yoga. Normally, I can reach about halfway down my calf. This time, I felt the floor. I definitely have a long ways to go before I’m Gumby, but this is progress!!

Oh, also, I have upped my weights from 8lbs to 10lbs. I figured, hey why not. I might as well get stronger.

Unrelated, but life news!

I am now a registered driver in California! That’s right, I passed my test! My vehicle passed the smog test. I have to put the tags on my car, and my license will come in the mail two weeks from now.


Also unrelated, my cooking is getting a little better.

I made some vegan mashed potatoes on Valentine’s Day with lobster tails.

They were garlic and chive mashed potatoes. I Googled Almond Milk Mashed Potatoes, and it was one of the first hits.

Boyfriend and I don’t drink real milk, so I worried we wouldn’t have potatoes, but we can!

I also made 4 ingredient fudge. Oh yah!


Round 2 of the Fix


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So, I finished the fix pretty strong.

On my last day of yoga, I actually did a butt/leg workout I found on Pinterest, and that definitely hurt.

It’s been raining here from Saturday to Thursday, so it’s been kind of dull here.

I have, however, started the fix again. I might even do a third rotation, but I definitely don’t feel like I am where I want to be. I still do some modified versions of things. I was once able to do 20+ pushups, now I can do 3-4. Granted, I am doing a different pushup, not your wide shoulder BS that anyone can do. I’m keeping my elbows in, and this is infinitely harder for everyone. I was never able to do 20+ of these.

Today was leg day, and I was able to do Split Squats for a whopping 30 seconds and also 40 seconds. I used to be unable to do more than 10 seconds. I’m sure that by the end of these 21 days, I’ll be able to do them in their entirety. I’m kind of excited.

On Sunday, Kev, Mog, and I went for a run around the neighborhood. Because Mogli was so excited and because I haven’t done it in forever, I had a case of Lead Foot Syndrome. Every step my feet would pound the pavement so hard. This was obviously horrible, so within a few minutes, my shins were on fire.

Kevin explained how to bounce off the foot instead of slam down. It was easier, and it was also easier because by now Mogli had used about 75% of his energy (and mine, thanks).

My fitbit, for the first time, actually measure that I had 10 minutes of cardio. Normally, I’m in that “fat burn” section, but I guess running had me in the cardio.

I’m excited for daylight savings time. I would love to go for runs after work, but right now it’s too dark when Kevin gets home. I could go alone or with Mogli, and maybe I will, meh! We’ll see.

One thing that has suffered, and I’m not sure why, is my sleep. Maybe the Eight Sleep is defective, or maybe I just suck at sleeping now, but I’ve gone from “Good Sleep” to “Average.”

I think the real reason behind it is the rain. So, I’m a lot less active when it rains. The last whole week has been raining, so I haven’t been out, and I kind of am sedentary (outside of my 30 min workout at 6am). Over the weekend, we stayed in and watched Naruto all day, so we didn’t really NEED this ultra sleep that we normally do after hiking.

….Just looked outside and it’s definitely drizzling.

Anyway, one thing that has finally turned around…drumroll!!!

My resting heart rate! Yay! Finally. Starting Feb 2, my heart rate was 59. Then 2/3 – 2/6 my heart rate was 58. Then, from this past Tuesday until today, my heart rate is finally 57bpm!!

I also had my annual doctor visit, and I was actually 3.5 lbs lighter than last February.

I’m not sure if that really says much, because of a couple of things: 1. I probably had a jacket on last year since NJ –> snow. 2. I wasn’t working out at all. 3. I really don’t care.

I am really happy about my pulse, though. I’m happy that I’m doing the workouts every day (even when I complain about getting out of bed).

Also!! I cooked a Ground Chicken Lasagna Casserole Spinach Mix. IMG_4235.JPGIMG_4236.JPGIMG_4237.JPGIMG_4238.JPGIMG_4240.JPGIMG_4242.JPG

I chopped onions, garlic, and green peppers. Sautéed them with a little olive oil. I steamed the spinach for 2 minutes (lightly wilted). The penne was 10 minutes boiled. I cooked the ground chicken on the stove and once it was done, I mixed it with about a cup of ricotta cheese. Lined a glass pan with some alfredo sauce (ok, not everything has to be healthy every time). Did a layer of the penne, layer of ground chicken, layer of the spinach, and sautéed stuff, and then added another layer of penne. Topped with some cheese!

Baked at 350 for 35 minutes, and voila!

Added some garlic powder and yum. IMG_4208.JPG

This was from Pinterest…sort of. The photo was of just a regular egg on top of a tomato inside of a green pepper. So the photo inspired me. I actually had the green pepper on the stove for ten minutes or so. I made scrambled eggs separated and then stuffed the peppers with the scrambled eggs. The eggs have chives, spinach, and onion in them. I also always garnish with fresh tomatoes, because tomatoes are my fav.

Not too shabby.


Update on the Workouts!


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So, I’m almost done the fix. I have three days left and I’ll have completed 21 days of exercising.

I’ve definitely come a long way, and it’s nowhere near as hard as I thought the first day. I can’t stress enough how difficult the first week was for me. My butt was sore every time I sat down and my legs were pained with every uphill step I took.

It’s been worth it, though. I don’t feel AS flabby anymore. I have a long way to go before I am as toned as I’d like to be, but this is a start. My heart rate has been consistently 60 bpm, and on Thursday, it was finally 59 bpm. I was pretty thrilled about that.

My sleep has improved. I’m consistently getting “good” sleep, according to Eight Sleep. My highest score was 94 (out of 100). That’s incredible.

Kevin and I started doing the workouts at 6am. I’m more of a morning person today than I was when we first started. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like the idea of doing it, but I do like knowing I’m done my workout for the day.

Today was Pilates – not nearly as hard. I only did one Kat version (the butt one).

Yesterday was Lower Fix. I still can’t do Split Squats, and I hate it. Otherwise, the workout made me sweat but I don’t feel sore today.

Before that was Upper Fix. I still did the majority of my pushups on my knees.

The day before was Total Body Cardio. It went by pretty quickly, and I can finally do the ab workouts for longer than 40 seconds!

So here, are some photos of what I’ve been cooking:IMG_4129.JPG
More protein pancake/crepes!

IMG_4130.JPGCan of tuna, tablespoon light mayo, red onion, spinach and toast.


IMG_4134.JPGSalmon, collard greens, onions, and corn with blackened salmon in a caper, pickle, and mayo glaze.

IMG_4192.JPGBuffalo chicken white pizza.


IMG_4191.JPGAlmonds and golden raisins for a midday snack today. 🙂

So, I’ve been learning to cook! I’m not the greatest, and I definitely dislike some veggies (I’m looking at you Collard Greens and Spinach), but sometimes things are an acquired taste.

As for the next steps to take: I’m going to do the Fix for another 21 days. Kevin didn’t get his full 21 days, so I figure I’ll do it again with him. After that, I’d like to do Fit Extreme or Beach Body Guide.


Hair Hair Hair


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Last April, I looked at photos of myself in 2014, and I really missed how versatile my hair was. During the summer, I wore it curly some days, and some days I wore it straight. It looked healthy, full, and (in April 2016) I felt that I looked good in 2014. After a heartbreak during that summer, I decided that straightening my hair was the only way I looked somewhat attractive.

It never fails to amaze me how heartbreak can completely screw with your head.

S0, in an effort to fix the heartbreak and/or win back the guy, I figured that my ugly curly hair was one of the reasons he and I didn’t work out.

Yeah. Settle down, Psycho.

Of course, in that stupid attempt, I fried the crap out of my hair. I used the 450 degree setting, did it almost every day, and never used heat protectant spray.

Don’t get me wrong, my hair looked great straightened. Then I started curling it with a wand. My poor hair really went through a lot. All of 2015, I just continued the straightened hair thing. No one likes curly hair. Who even has curly hair?

Fast forward to February or March of 2016. I finally got my haircut by Kim (Kevin’s stylist). She said my hair was a little fried and also that it was thin.


I used to have thick hair!

So, I mulled over on that for a month. I stopped straightening it for a few days/weeks, but my hair wouldn’t hold a natural curl. It sat limp and didn’t do anything. I asked Kim’s advice.

Chop. Dat. Off.

Now, I haven’t had short hair since 2010 or something. As I sat in her chair that day in April, I nodded and told her to do it. “How short?” she asked. “Chop all of the damage off,” I advised. “All?” she showed me how far up it went (about a half inch from my shoulders). She decided to cut it a little longer, maybe an inch past my shoulders. Before her first cut, she asked if I was sure. I told her to do it before I changed my mind.

There it went. All of my hair.

When I finally got home to wash it, it felt alien to me. I was used to feel hair on the middle of my back. My hair didn’t require nearly as much conditioner as before. Did it even need conditioner? This was foreign ground for me.

When it finally dried, I was shocked. “That’s it?” I wondered. My hair still looked limp. It was fluffier, sure. It was much shorter, all right. It was still not curly.

So began my journey of bringing my curls back to life.

Enter r/curlyhair. I spent a lot of time on the subreddit trying all of their techniques. I will say, I never did try the Curly Girl Method. I sometimes skipped shampoo. I sometimes used sulfate free shampoo/conditioner. Mostly, though, I followed Kim’s advice.

I used Beach Waves shampoo and Conditioner by Redken, as well as their spray. That gave me volume and some minor curls. Eventually, I got into a groove. This took MONTHS.

My current routine is: wash with the Redken. After the shower, wring my hair once in the sink, then apply Shea Moisture Curl Enhancing Smoothie and scrunch. Then apply Eco Styler Olive Oil Gel and scrunch. Then apply the Redken spray and scrunch. Then apply John Freida frizz Ease and scrunch. Air dry for about two hours. Scrunch out the crunch with a bit more John Freida Frizz Ease.

It took me a long time.

I recently bought a mousse for volume. I also changed shampoo and conditioner for added thickness. Literally started these two a few days ago. The shampoo is OGX Biotin and Collagen. My sister swears her hair is thicker from using it. She has always had thin hair, and I’ve noticed the thickness. She also takes biotin supplements, so it’s probably a mix of both. I’m sticking to just the shampoo/conditioner for now.

I decided last week that I wanted to straighten my hair again. For old time’s sake, you know?

I bought heat protectant spray. I’ve been looking longingly at photos of my long straight hair. It wouldn’t hurt once, right?

So, I sprayed the crap out of it with the spray. I let it dry, because I read you shouldn’t straighten when your hair is wet (with anything).

Then I started with my 200 degree iron.

It took me 20 minutes to straighten, but it had that fly-away, fluffy straight. So I re-straightened with 250-300 degrees and called it a day.

It’s as long as it was nine months ago (in fact, a little bit longer). It feels stronger and healthier.

So, was it worth the 30 minute ordeal?

Absolutely not.

I can’t believe I used to do this regularly.

I can’t say it isn’t nice, because I do like it. I feel more conventionally pretty with straight hair. This also might have to do with the fact that it’s longer when I straighten. I easily lose 3-4 inches (at least) when it’s curly.

I also feel more like me with curly hair. It requires a lot less effort, too (which is fantastic).

So what’s the verdict?

I’ll straighten it occasionally. Not on “fancy” occasions, because then I’ll start to view it like McDonald’s–like some kind of silly, inaccurate reward. (You know when you’re a child and you get McDonald’s once a month or something and you feel like you just won the lottery, when really, you’re totally ruining your body and it’s not at all good for you.)

So, today, January 31, 2017, I have straight hair. Tomorrow, it’ll be curly again, because I’ll get all sweaty from Total Body Cardio.

That’s the other thing: when I work out and get sweaty, I have to wash my hair. I work out every day. I get sweaty about 4/7 days a week. I don’t want to straighten my hair 4 days a week. Once a week is fine. Maybe on yoga days, when I don’t get nasty sweaty.

Then again, maybe just stick to curly.



Dirty 30 and Yoga


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Okay, so it appears that Eight was just taking its grand ‘ole time, and our stats are actually now available. Since I’m not sure where I left off, I’ll give the last three days.

Friday: 79
Saturday: 89
Sunday: 92
Monday: 93

Yeah! 93, yeah buddy!

I think this is kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy. If my sleep score said 60, I think I’d feel crappy because of the number. If I end up getting lower numbers, I’ll try not to look for a while, because I don’t want how I feel every day to be dictated by a number.

So, yesterday was Dirty 30. It was definitely hard, but I much prefer it to Cardio Fix. I can’t stress enough how badly I hate Cardio Fix.

Today was Yoga. Kevin woke me at 6am. Because I didn’t get up at exactly 6, he decided to snooze it 10 minutes (twice) and let it just go forever. I hate alarms. I especially hate his alarm.

We got up and I had every intention to do yoga. For some reason, my entire body was so stiff. Downward dog was nowhere near as deep as I normally go. So…2 minutes in, I quit. I took a nap on the couch while he did yoga. HEH!

I had breakfast, worked for a few hours, and took a break to do my yoga. I felt the stretches deeper. I’ll try to do Total Body Cardio tomorrow morning, but I think yoga is best saved for when your body is awake and warm. Not cold and sleepy.

I do feel better now that week 2 is over. I only have 7 more days of the fix and I’m done. I have three options once it’s over.

  1. Start again
  2. Get 21 Day Fix Extreme
  3. Do Kayla’s Beach Body Guide

I’m inclined to start again, but seeing as I’m already nowhere near as sore this week (hardly sore), I think I should do Kayla or Extreme. Doing the same exercises is better than nothing, but I don’t feel challenged.



Muir Woods Trail


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Unfortunately, I have no stats on sleep, because the sheet hasn’t registered our sleep in two days. We’re resetting it today, but that’s pretty crappy.

We did Pilates yesterday and it wasn’t as terrible as the first time. I’m noticing a trend. The first week was absolutely atrocious. I’m not saying it was easy peasy, but it was definitely less rough.

After we finished, I made us cottage cheese pancakes. They were surprisingly delicious. They actually turned into half crepes, half pancakes. I can’t complain, though.

They had no difference in taste, but they had zero sugar and significantly more protein.

Definitely worth swapping real pancakes for.

After that, we wanted to go to Muir Woods, but there was no parking, so we went to the Golden Gate Bridge instead. It ended up being quite a hike there, so that was all we did yesterday. Yesterday was 12,599 steps and 61bpm.

I’m not sure how resting bpm is really measured if you’re out being active the whole day. Right now, I’m relaxing and my Fitbit isn’t on. It’s not registering my resting bpm.

Today, we woke up extra early, drove to Muir Woods and hiked the longer trail. I believe it was 4 miles. It was beautiful. I would absolutely do it again. Gorgeous views, not too rough of a hike, and again, breathtaking.

Afterwards, we came home, relaxed and then took Mogli on a long walk into town. We did a longer walk than usual to tucker him out. As I type this, Mogli is between my legs passed out with his head on my knee. Mission accomplished.

Then…we decided that we had to do the workout. Today was Cardio Fix.

Because we didn’t get enough of a workout in from Muir Woods and our long walk. This (by itself) was 19,000 steps. Sure. Sure. Sure. Ok. Let’s do this.

Except I half-assed it. I’m not sorry. I hate cardio with so much passion. Even thinking about it gets my blood boiling. What is the freaking point? Thankfully (but not really), I had back pain from the hike, so I couldn’t do the jumping BS. So, I did high knees by walking in place instead of jogging. I did the side jumping jacks in a dance-esque move. I didn’t do skater JUMPS, I did skater squats.

Because I hate cardio.

Instead, I think we’re going to go for a half hour jog around the neighborhood next time we have to do cardio fix. I don’t mind total body cardio so much, but I really, really abhor cardio fix. I’m sorry, Autumn, but WHAT DA HECK.


So, then I made us protein shakes. One scoop of Halo Top ice cream (it’s pretty good), protein powder, almond milk, and one spoon of peanut butter (but the peanut butter without sugar or salt. It’s by Smuckers and has nothing else in it). Kev’s was different, I made his with Skippy’s peanut butter (chockfull of sugar), a banana, and Lactaid.

After my shake, I was no longer hunger. Fuhhhh

Kev made us dinner. He had steak, potato wedges, cabbage and onion, and he made me chicken instead of steak. I literally had one bite of the chicken and maybe three little wedges with a bite of the cabbage.IMG_4053.JPG

My belly is so full.

I just know I’ll be hungry in an hour.

Luckily, I’ll also probably be sound asleep.

8pm on a Sunday. I am the Granny to end all Grannies.

Anyway, here are some photos from today.

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I may have slacked off and not updated on my progress…

But only because I was busy—not because I skipped any of the workouts.

Stats first:

Monday: Sleep – 87, BPM – 61
Tuesday: Sleep – 84, BPM – 60
Wednesday: Sleep – 77, BPM – 60
Thursday: Sleep – 82, BPM 60

Monday was Dirty 30. It was dirty, all right. I don’t actually remember it. Gah! I have to start writing in here every day. Dang it!

Tuesday was Yoga. I will say Yoga is always a lot harder than I think it is. My knees always feel particularly creaky. Also, I am not that flexible yet, but I know I will be if I keep at it.

IMG_3755.JPGThis was Mogli when I was finished yoga – pretty spot on to how I felt.

Yesterday was Total Body Cardio again. I kind of dreaded it, because Day 1 was the day that really hurt me last week. It set the tone for the rest of the week, and it really almost made me want to quit.

I woke up early and did it right away. It wasn’t crazy difficult, but I will say that even the modifications were harder than I wanted. The next day wasn’t terrible, either. I’m not saying I’m fit now, but I think muscle memory is a thing (unless I’m way off on what happened). My muscles didn’t tear as much this time, because they already tore the last time. That’s what I like to think, anyway.

Today was Upper Body Fix, and I’m not anywhere near as sore as last week. The workouts were all right. I still can’t do that many push ups, but I haven’t modified anything for these exercises. IMG_3802.JPG
After I finished upper fix, I saw him lounging like this.



Oh! and I decided I should probably focus on eating a little healthier SO:

IMG_3782.JPGYes, I made rice (and not the 5 minute kind–though, it requires the same steps, only longer), salmon and kidney beans.

I misread the directions, heh! It asked me to cook it “flesh side down.” I thought the skin was the flesh. So, I actually cooked it skin side down for 5 minutes, flesh side down for 5 minutes, and then just to be safe, I flipped it and cooked it for like 2 more minutes.

So it was pretty overcooked, but it was my first time (without any direction from Any Other Person), and I’m okay with it.

As for the kidney beans…what the heck are you even supposed to do with them? I just rinsed them and put them on the plate. Yeah, it was very bland, but I was getting my protein, so whatever.

I’ll have to Pinterest some ideas, but I’m pretty happy about it. I used to eat cereal for dinner (like two days ago). I’m trying to adult and only eat healthy foods. Apple a day and all that jazz. Apples are surprisingly tasty.

Tomorrow, after I do the lower fix, I’m going to make Cottage Cheese Protein Pancakes. They sound terrible, sure, but we’ll see.

Pilates, Sutro Baths, Land’s End and Cardio Fix


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Data recap for the last two days: Friday night’s sleep was 86 with 27% deep and 73% light. Last night’s sleep was 83 with 20% deep and 80% light sleep.

My resting bpm Saturday was 62 and today is 61.

So, yesterday was Pilates. Pilates is about lengthening and strengthening.

Boy, did I.

I could barely do the part that works both sides of your butt and thighs. My goodness. The pain from the previous workouts has been so intense that this just pushed me over the edge. Insane pain.

After that, we went to the Sutro Baths and then also did the Land’s End Trail. My Fitbit says that we climbed 111 floors. Yes, one hundred and eleven floors. Fitbit also tells me that we took 23, 255 steps all day.

Last weekend we went to the beach and Japantown. I got about 20,000 steps then, also.

I will say that my thighs and butt felt like they were tearing for most of the day. I kept trucking though, and I did cheat.

We had wings from the brewery in our town, some white wine, and also two scoops of dark chocolate and hazelnut chocolate ice cream.

I’m a little bummed, because I feel like I undid some of the work that I’m in pain for; however, I also feel okay about it.

I’m not trying to get into perfect shape overnight. Knowing that, I’m okay with taking the longer journey. We are in San Francisco, and we are being much healthier than our last few months in Jersey.

I must say that I love our little neighborhood. We are blocks away from the train, which means we’re blocks away from all of the shopping ever. Last night I picked up a red, tan and black scarf from Madewell for 40% off. Yes, I love me a steal.

Also, by the time we went to Union Square, a torrential downpour began, and I was happy to try on my Bean Boots.

They kept my feet dry! I can’t say they’re The Most Stylish thing ever, but they kept my feet warm and dry, and I’ve been trying to get Kev to get a pair (that’ll never happen).

Maybe at some point I’ll start reviewing some of the things I wear/own that I actually love. It’s so few and far between.


Today I did the Cardio Fix. I’m hesitant to say that I did a lot of the exercises with Kat. Yes, modified versions, because I’m too out of shape to do the Autumn ones. Disheartening? Absolutely.

I will say, though, that it’s just a matter of time. Sure, maybe I did modified burpees, and maybe I couldn’t finish the commandos and had to get down on my knees with Kat halfway through, but I did what I was able to.

I will get stronger. I will be able to do everything as quickly and as accurately as Autumn soon enough.

In the meantime, I’m thankful it’s Sunday and I’m relaxing with Kev and our little Mog-Munchkin. 🙂

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Leg day with a side of Fiona


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IMG_3583.JPGLast night’s sleep score was 80 with 25% deep and 75% light sleep.

My resting bpm was 60 today.

It’s not perfect, but I’ll take it as a work in progress.

Truthfully, today I’m a bit disheartened. The jumping jacks during the warm-ups were painful for my chest, back and thighs. The first exercise elongated the tense and sore muscles. The second one was all right, but I have to admit that I did a lot less squats with knee raises than I’m used to.

I used to power through all of these workouts.

Without sounding like a negative Nan, I feel lame and out of shape.

To most people, I doubt that I look any different today than I looked last summer on the beach.

To me, I’m definitely flabby. My butt isn’t the perky little butt I worked so hard to get. My legs have a little jiggle to them. I’m not anywhere near where I was before.

We don’t have a scale here, and I don’t really want one. Not too long ago, I was crazy obsessed with my weight. Your weight is a number. I probably weigh more than I weighed last summer, but that’s irrelevant. When I was working out every day and eating healthy, I weighed about 125. When I was eating garbage and trying to skip meals, I weighed 120 (on a good day), but I was still a flabby Fiona.

I’d rather be toned, have some muscle and feel good rather than be a small number on the scale and unhealthy. My fitness goals are half vanity and half health.

I feel like people sometimes get caught up on the vanity aspect. “People who work out every day are just vain and in love with themselves.”

That’s dismissive and quite ignorant. There is nothing wrong with doing things that bring you joy. If having a great body brings you joy, why does that have to be negative?

Back to today.

Part 3 of the workout was the hardest. I can only get through almost (try 30 seconds of) the entire split squats. My legs burn and feel like jelly. This was also when I was at my peak and doing it every day for months. UGH.

My legs are just sore.

I had leftover chicken stir fry with a protein shake and…a scoop of ice cream. Yeah, looking at my flabby butt in the mirror tonight, I definitely am not thrilled about the ice cream, but c’est la vie.IMG_3584.JPG

IMG_3588.JPGI wanted to take Mogli for a walk to the park, but it started raining three blocks in. We climbed the mountain back to our house in the rain (thankfully, I brought an umbrella).

So, day 3 is down. If I remember correctly, tomorrow is Pilates.

I’ve decided that once the 21 days are up, I’m going to do the Bikini Body Guide that I did for two weeks a couple of years ago. That was much rougher than the 21 day fix.

Also…it’s only 27 minutes.


Day 2 -Quite Sore


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Last night I got 8.5 hours of sleep. Kevin got this nifty sheet that measures your sleep. So far, my average is about a 79 out of 100. It’s considered average. Last night my score was 85. There was a second sleep score that was 39. Upon further inspection, Mogli took a nap in the bed between 9:46 and 11:46. He fell asleep as soon as his body hit the bed. Poor guy. Also for the first time, my sleep was 30% deep and 70% light. Usually it’s around 20% deep. I’m not sure if this has anything to do with The Fix, but after I finished making pancakes and scrambled eggs for us, I mentioned my sleep score to Kevin and he joked that it was obvious I had great sleep last night. LAWL

My heart rate has bugged me since I quit working out. My resting bpm was between 57 – 59 from June to October. A few weeks after not doing the workouts, my heart rate climbed to 60, 61, 62 and even 63.

It’s normal. Those are healthy ranges. I know. Blah blah.

It’s also true that your heart rate can be lower. Runner’s have lower heart rates. Elite athletes, etc. I know I’m not in that boat, but you know what—I liked my 57-59.

Since moving to San Francisco, I’ve had daily workouts. Yes, walking up and down the hills to get to and from everywhere takes a serious toll on my shins and calves, but they’ve acclimated now. The hill to our house is still something I’m not used to. That being said, my heart rate on Tuesday was 59. Yesterday and today it’s back to 60, but let’s just say I’m a little smug about this recent change in events.

Back to this morning.

“Sore” is an understatement. My thighs felt like heavy bricks. Every time I had to go from standing to sitting was followed by a loud groan. Every time I noticed my posture had gone to crap, I straightened up and felt each one of my abs rip apart my stomach. Just imagining doing the next workout was enough to make me reach for the pain reliever.

I know, I don’t typically do that, but I couldn’t fathom working through that pain.

Day two wasn’t as terrible as I imagined, though. Don’t get me wrong, the jumping jacks hurt my legs and stomach, and the jogging in place ripped up my thighs, but it was easier. The workout is focused on arms and abs, so it was manageable. Autumn said something about wanting something you’ve never had, that you’ve got to do something you’ve never done.

Armed with the knowledge that I have done it before, I pressed on. The pushups were a killer. I was able to do 20 before. I could only do 4 before I dropped to my knees and cried my way through the 60 seconds. Excuses soared through my head as fast as I could refute them.

Me: You’ve done this before! You can do it again.
Quitter: Yeah, but you’re so out of shape now.
Me: Is that all you’ve go—
Quitter: You should just quit. This hurts too much.
Me: You can do it
Quitter: Yeah, but what if you can’t…
Me: Other people have done it. People morbidly obese. People much older. Peop—
Quitter: Just stop

I paused a handful of times, and I’m not proud of it. When I got to the scissor twists and the circle crunches, I was convinced that my stomach lining was literally tearing as I twisted.

It wasn’t as horrible because I didn’t have to work my overworked legs.

It wasn’t as horrible because there were only two rounds to repeat twice.

It wasn’t horrible because it really was 60 seconds of fighting with myself to just get it done.

It wasn’t as horrible because I didn’t quit. If I quit, it would have been harder. I would have to admit that I failed. I would have to come up with a big enough excuse for not having done it. I think working out is mostly fighting the urge to quit. Your body is surprisingly resilient. It’s your brain that you have to convince.

The sooner I suck it up and fight through the pain, the closer I am to being strong enough to not feel this extreme pain.

I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I knew just how bad it would hurt every single time I had that extra side of mashed potatoes. I knew it every time I shoveled that extra dark chocolate kit kat into my mouth over winter break. I knew it during every moment that I felt like “…you really shouldn’t eat this crap” but then did anyway.

I knew this moment would come back one day. I knew I was going to start working out.

I also knew that I wasn’t going to make any excuses for myself. If it hurts, then maybe I shouldn’t have quit. If it hurts, then maybe I won’t quit again.

I do feel stronger, but I still feel like a bloated little blob. All of me is still so sore.

Tomorrow is leg and butt day. I also remember that tomorrow is Autumn’s favorite little “BONUS ROUND” with her kickbacks.

Leg day is (far and away) THE hardest for me (if I remember correctly), but it’s also my favorite. I always knew that if anything was kicking my butt into shape (literally), it was those 30 minutes.

Anyway, day two is done, and it was bad, but it’s done, and that’s good enough for me.